Today is Friday, April 27th and I haven’t posted here in quite some time. I’ve been suffering from a chronic bout of “Writer’s Block,” and even on days I feel like writing, I can’t think of anything to say. Most days I can’t bring myself to do much of anything except what’s required of me (i.e. work, yard-work, etc.) and even then, it’s a struggle.
I had a series of three nerve blocks done and they haven’t brought me any relief. I have an appointment with my pain management specialist on Monday, to talk about freezing the suspect nerve/nerves. I’m in the process of weaning off the various medications I’m on, except for the pain meds. It’s a catch-22, really; when I take the meds, it affects me mentally and who I am. If I don’t take them, the pain affects me mentally and thus changes who I am. I feel as though I’m only a fraction of the man I was.
I was watching De Le Hoya/Mayweather 24/7 on HBO earlier and it made me really sad. I wish I could train again and can’t help but wonder if my life as I know it is over. I plan on going back to the gym tomorrow to try to train, at least a little, even though I know I’ll pay for it when the evening comes. Sedentary life just isn’t for me. Here comes that block again…
